today is the day the most dreadful thing happen… my dad pass away…. but luckily he left peacefully and a relief from the pain he had been suffering for the past yr or so and i juz hope that he find happiness in the next world…my frenz who are reading this and wishes to pay last respect pls msg me or call me… the wake is from 08/03/08 sat to 11/03/08 tue morning…..
….sob…. my dad got terminal stage cancer….. :_(
haha…. my bro wan me to write abt him so should write abt him le…. cy my buddy likes to joke ard and gd in dizi and gym training… too many muscles though… haha… 
haha…. den always go his house and we will talk a lot regarding almost anything we can think of… haha… den will go supper when got latz… if not den budgit lifestyle…. haha…. but think recently we also bo latz… so not much to follow up… wats more he studying so not really gonna interupt in his studies… hehe….
den going australia soon…. den some of my other gd buddies very long nv meet le… hope can see u all soon ba…. esp my bro since sec… haha…. u know who u r…. yeah… if not den muz meet when i return from australia yah…. haha….
lastly, today 21 oct 2006, my dear and i went to many places…. starting from yishun ‘north pt’ to woodlands ’causeway pt’ to bukit batok ‘west mall’ and lastly boon lay ‘jurong pt’…. haha…. happy happy…. yeah…. hee… really glad dear also happy today…. nan de can do this… wahaha… den also go watch death note at causeway pt…. big sia… den we bought couple seats…. haha…. comfortable without the arm rest between us…. haha… show not bad but still got part 2…. zzz…. hope we can do this again sometimes in the near future yah…. haha… think thats abt all liao….
oh yah…. going australia from 3 nov to 23 nov…. so dun call nor msg me during this period of time…. hee…. take care everyone…. my last post until i’m back from australia…. ciaoz… (",)
now to update abt me and my dear…. wahaha…. there r a few memorable dates like 6 sept, 6 oct and today 15 oct…. coz today is the first time i see my dear crying and its all bcoz of me…. see dear cry i also sad… sorry dear…. love ya lots… i know i had been a bit forceful towards certain things but if dear wont juz keep all to urself den maybe will better…. i’m not the unreasonable type so anything unhappy and juz talk to me yah… so dear next time got things muz say k? hee…. like that den can maintain balance and healthy relationship…. hope juz now the outburst of tears and the long chat had disperse dear’s unhappiness and hurtful feelings…. in front of me dear dun have to act strong…. so my shoulder and chest will always be there for u to lean on whenever u need one…. hee… but i promise i wont let dear cry bcoz of me again…. 
love being with dear coz u make me happy when i sad, entertain me when i’m lame, care for me when i’m down and so much more…. dear is the best le…. but no one is perfect nor strong throughout so its ok to show ur weak side to me as i will be there to comfort u as well…. touched? hehe…. we have a lot of face in the near future so we shouldn’t let our own problems break us down even b4 we advance far yah…. really love being with dear especially when there’s only the 2 of us and we can chat all we like and other um um things…. haha… oops…. hehe…. so hope dear will be happy always as wat u like to say k? muacks to dear for watever u had done for me and miss ya lots…. lazy to write le… hee… so think end here le…. haha…. only for dear to read but if got any enquiries from other pple, can private msg me but whether i will ans is another thing…. wahaha…. love my dear…. hehe….
finally finish 2 concerts and 1 more concert left… really very depress this period of time…. seeing all my frenz admitting in uni while i had to waste a yr bcoz of a stupid test which i had to take but nv take…. real stupid of me sia…. den now still kena a major reservice in nov which is held in australia…. stress… many might envy me going abroad for free but i really dun feel like going…. the thought of going out field already turns off all mood regardless of where it is held…. haizzz…. den actually hope to do a lot of things to make up for the wasted time but the money problem came…. pek cek…. somemore not enough students to maintain my upkeep so no choice but to seek a job soon…. sian… dun even know wat i can do…. no experience at all…. wat a headache…. really a bad yr for me sia…. even on one occasion that sitting bus home also kena problem…. bus driver quarrel with a guy who wanna act ah beng den whole bus drive to police station and in the end had to take cab home…. suay…. more unfortunate incident is my hp no. all open in 4D on one of the day but i nv buy that day…. sian… somemore front 4 in second prize and last 4 in consolation prize and all zheng zi…. haiz… really is suay plus sian plus cmi…. think i muz go bai bai liao…. if not i think more unfortunate events will befall on me lor…. wat the hell….
but gd things still happen this yr… like many from singles became couples which i feel happy for them…. having more frenz that i can have open conversation with…. finally seeing some improvement in my instrument skill…. breaking my minesweeper record times and again to achieve the 83 seconds… wahahaha….
so i guess bad things happening to me still hold a greater potion this yr…. lastly, i hope if any gd frenz of mine reading this crap and is slowly drifted away from me pls keep in contact with me coz i nv wan to lose a jewel as precious as u are and new frenz reading this can try to know me better and u will know my true colours… wahahaha…. sound evil hor…. but the fact is i am… hahaha…
think i crazy again liao…. take care to those who read this crapping…. tune in a few months later for new updates… haha…. THE END!
busy busy busy….. july got 3 concert which i may be performing for 2 of them and doing stage planning for one of them….. anyone reading this and is interested to find out more can msg me…. haha…. 2 orchestra performance on 1st and 8 of july while 1 guzheng performance on 28 july….. hope to hear from any interested party…..
Finally reach the yr of 21 and NS life is going to be over soon….. During NS, i really enjoyed to a particular place…. There i can play, make friends and destress from the taxing job of being a soldier…. That is also where i found a group of pple always so cheerful and able to make me laugh everytime i see them…. Maybe bcoz they are young and havent stepped into the real world thus behaving so innocently…. But now everything had changed…. I cant seem to get that happy feeling anymore…. The close bond with them has start to break…. Topics of discussions are different and gaps are starting to form quickly…. I also cant feel the sense of enjoyment when i went there now…. Sometimes i have been thinking, is there still any point for me to turn up when i no longer has the same enthusiasm i had b4….. New pple kept coming and i think maybe its time for older pple like me to slowly disappear coz as time passes, pple there may not remember there is such a person called xiao tou anymore….. I wonder whether this will come true or there will be any thing for me to missed and bring back the long gone joy i have had there….. I juz hope that the fullstop will not come so soon….. Think thats abt all…. Hope the next time i write this i will be happy again and not like this nor the previous post…. thanx for taking time to read and take care everyone…..
today i receive a news from a girl i like that she is attached….. this is really catastropic for me as i really really like her a lot….. how worse can one be to find out that the girl he like is not able to be with him….. i nv thought that i had be so sad eventhough i knew i will lose her someday to someother guy….. i know i may sound like she is already my girl like thatbut she is on my mind and in my heart all the time…. nv once i hadn’t been thinking of her……..now my heart is terribly broken….. though time can heal everything but wat matter to me is the duration of the pain that is going to last in my heart before i’m able to carry on….. sad sad sad….. anyone reading this pls forgive me for all the above craps as i’m juz trying to release the tears and sadness in the heart…..(;’_';)
